your death anniversary my angel (angel who was fake)

today is complete one year since you stopped playing imaginary role in my life by showing yourself dead..as you might had also guessed from our after  your death episode talks (as you talking to me as if it's your father talking with me) that i never believed you are dead and from your way of talking my doubt had became solid many times and i had mentioned it to you as well but i couldn't think of a reason that why you would play such game with me who gave you nothing but unconditional love..i don't feel any anger, hatred or anything towards you anymore don't know why..i guess you are some real sick guy and that you want to be buried in tillamook rock lighthouse but i would pray that you won't be buried over there ever coz that place seems haunted to me and i don't want you to be haunting after death coz though perhaps you don't know but right now as well you are kind of a hunted soul..if you are really suffering then i am sorry to say this but if you played with me then please do give my thought a deep thinking and you would realize that i am so very true and there is nothing but truth in my talks..i found out your truth after i visited our religious place mahakaleshwar in november last year and there i had wished god to free your soul from that haunted lighthouse and perhaps god listened to me because of that i knew you are not dead, i felt cheated again but i was happy that you are not dead and you are not there in that hunted lighthouse..if you are really sick and would die soon then i will still pray as i had prayed in our religious place during my visit in november that your ashes somehow reaches here and flown to river ganga so as your soul could get real content in the end and so as you shouldn't play with a heart who is filled with nothing but unconditional love in your next birth..GBU THAASTU (means amen in your words)

it's my angel's birthday today

it's your birthday today angel and i wish you were here to celebrate  it with me, you know how much i love you so no matter you are physically there with me or not but you are there with me in my heart all the time..i love you angel, i love you so very very very much

best wishes on my angel's mom birthday

my angel's pic, he posted today on messenger

Without Disguise

What else can I do

To make you see just me, 

For you to realize

There's no place I'd rather be.

But in your loving arms

Held close each night,

To pull you into me

And hold you to me tight.

Wherever in this world

Your own heart may go,

My soul will follow you

For I truly love you so.

Do I need to give

My very life to you

Or save your very soul

To prove that I am true?

Need I leap over buildings

Or part the wild seas,

Need i drop down

And beg you on my knees?

Look beyond your doubts,

Beyond logic and sanity,

Look deep inside  yourself

And find your love for me.

I am right here

Before your very eyes,

I am who I am,

I am without disguise.

I am a woman whole

Who loves but only you.

I'd give up my life to you

To prove that I am true.

choice

my angel

You don’t choose who you fall for. You just fall and you get this person who is all wrong, but yet so right. You know that you like them so much, except sometimes they drive you insane and no one can explain.

consoling myself

Just because someone doesn't love you  the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

unconditional love

Apologizing does not always mean that you are wrong & the other person 

is right. It just means that you value your relationship more than your ego.

i love you daddy

i am missing you so much. i never really got the chance to show how much you meant to me and i didn't realize it until it was too late. i love you daddy..so much. i am so sorry  for all the pain that i caused you and all the heartache that you had to go through. i just wish that i could hug you and hold you one last time. i am feeling like i am going to die soon but what will happen of my mother if i am also gone, just promise me daddy that you will help me through this.

i am wondering since yesterday evening whether my doubt is real or baseless?

There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts. It is a sword that kills.

perception

I Know What I Have Given You. I Don't Know What You Have Received.

In Your Arms

In your arms,

I want to lie,

And share with you,

How I feel inside.

Your hand so warm,

You hold me tight.

Your eyes have got me,

mesmerized!

Uncontrollable

Love and emotion,

Only with you,

I feel such devotion.

Sensual Love

Exceeding the limit,

Not a moment goes by,

Without you in it.

In your arms,

I want to lie.

Knowing our love will never die!

you - one day

One day you'll just be a memory for some people. Do your best to be a good one.

Diwali or Deepavali

Diwali - Festival of Lights

Diwali is one of the major Indian festivals celebrated all over India, with equal enthusiasm and zeal. the word Diwali is the abbreviation of the Sanskrit word Deepavali which means rows of lights. one of the major Hindu festival, it is celebrated to commemorate the victory of good over evil, when Lord Rama defeated Ravana and rescued his wife Sita from his custody. It is predominantly a five-day festival, with a number of customs and rituals followed during each day. People prepare themselves for the festival weeks ahead, by cleaning and decorating their houses and premises.

The main festival day falls on the no-moon day of the dark half of Kartik, according to the Hindu lunar calendar. Celebrated with vigor and gaiety by people of every religion, the magical effect of Diwali creates an atmosphere of joy and festivity. Innumerable lamps are lit on the roofs and windowsills of the houses, thus, giving a divine look to the whole scenario. It is said that Lakshmi, Goddess of Wealth, roams the earth on this day and enters the house that is pure, clean and brightly illuminated. Therefore, people, before exchanging gifts and bursting crackers, offer prayers to the deity.

Young and old, men and women, all dress up in new clothes on this day to illuminate their home with diyas. The deities of Goddess Lakshmi and Lord Ganesha are worshipped on Diwali, after which, the people share sweets and gifts with their relatives and friends. Fireworks, which attract the kids the most, form the highlight of the festival. The festive mood extends to the couple of days following the main day of the festival. Deepawali symbolizes the victory of righteousness and the lifting of spiritual darkness. It is the celebration of victory of good over evil - and the glory of light. Diwali signifies dispelling of darkness and filling the lives of the people by hopes. 

This is how India looked on the Diwali night from the satellite in outer space. Well, at leats this is what it would have looked in an artist’s imagination. The whole country is shining like jewels in complex nexus of lines.

music of nature

thought of the day

If you want your life to be a magnificent story, then begin by realizing that you are the author & every day you have the opportunity of writing a new page. 

become part of existence

Take hold of your own life. See that the whole existence is celebrating. These trees are not serious, these birds are not serious. The rivers and the oceans are wild, and everywhere there is fun, everywhere there is joy and delight. Watch existence, listen to the existence and become part of it.

truly beautiful - heart

The heart above all, is more real than the brain, for it does not think, it feels, for it does not lead you into darkness, but towards the light, for it does not grow hatred, but grows love, for it does not reflect, but forgive without hesitation, for it is the heart that make us truly beautiful.

lesson for me tonight

Only in the darkness , you are able to see the stars.